○ Letter to my little brother ○
24/03/17
Dear Nico,
I miss your hug.
Deeply.
It hurts.
I miss you.
It was too short.
But it filled me up.
I felt it.
Strong.
Meanfull.
I miss it.
And i miss you.
Deeply.
It breaks my heart.
It breaks my heart that i'll forget it.
I'll forget the sensation.
I'll forget your words.
I'll forget your voice.
I'll forget your face.
Your young and pale, slightly puffy face.
I'm so scared to forget all this.
I don't want to forget this dream.
Our dream.
Us.
My lil brother.
Not mine but you were mine, last night.
And i was yours.
It felt right.
It felt us.
Brother and sister.
I miss you.
But i'll forger you.
I'll forget this strong feeling 'us'.
And it breaks my heart.
I miss you.
So
So much.
I don't want to forget you.
To forget us.
I love you so much, my dear Nico.
I miss you.
I need you.
In the darkness we travelled and i felt you.
My dearest brother.
I miss you.
So
So much
Actually it's the first thing i write after a dream i had.
It never happened to me to have the urge to vent my emotions after a dream.
I felt so bad that morning.
I wrote it in the subway, on my way to the accademy.
Even odder is that i dreamt about Percy Jackson's characters.
I'm used to dream idols (not anymore lmao) or fictional characters but never of books' ones.
The painful emotion stayed all the morning and i don't know how i managed to work that day but i remember the strange calm i was filled with, like i finally gave up on something and that was more important that deal with the people around me.
It still echos inside of me the memory of that morning.
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